To help determine events in the chart, you watch the transits of Venus around the chart to Venus Return planets and angles, as well as natal planets and angles. You also progress the ascendant by one degree for each day.
May 18- I wasn't actually home this day, but at a friend's house for the gender reveal of his baby. Not much happened on this day, outside of my friend doing work on his laptop and his wife and sisters looking at stuff on their phones, as well as asking me if I heard "Laurel" or "Yanny", as that was going on then. All the real action occurred the next day. I told my friend about this crush, and he invited his sister, who works at a beauty salon, to "fix me up" for her. She forgot the equipment, but that was okay, as I was mainly anxious for the reveal, which I guessed right as it was a boy, and went swimming even though it was MAYBE 80 degrees that day. Later in the night, I began drinking, and actually drank way too much in an attempt to drown out the feelings I wasn't used to having, and eventually threw up in the yard. Not my proudest moment to say the least, but these feelings were foreign to me, as I'm normally an intellectual and detached Gemini. I then went to bed, and was eventually woken up in the middle of the night, and tried getting back to sleep, but couldn't, and I thought about y actions that night for a good two hours or so before finally getting back to sleep. This is my Saturn return period as well...
June 3- Venus was transiting the descendant on this day. I sent this girl a letter on my birthday, and the next few days she was acting very weird and ignoring when I waved. She came in the pool when I was there and I pranked her to see her reaction, and she was as friendly as usual, and even asked me if I liked certain foods and drinks and laughed when I danced to a song on her phone! I was convinced that she liked me that day, but the next day it was back to the ignoring. To say I was baffled and confused is an understatement... in the chart, her name asteroid is directly opposing Neptune, but I didn't include it for privacy reasons.
Late June- Ascendant conjunct anti vertex, Venus conjunct North Node- This is when my infatuation started to consume me. Remember when I said I wasn't used to these feelings? Well, this time I had another drinking episode accompanied by throwing up, this time at home. I felt so guilty about it afterwards, yet I wasn't judged at all! After this, I learned my tolerance to alcohol... Saturn Return!
Shortly before July 4- Ascendant opposite natal Karma, Venus conjunct Vertex- I wrote another letter, where I didn't confess my feelings yet, but invited her to watch a hilarious DVD set with me that I just got, as well as watch fireworks with me. I also got her a gift card for Red Robin, which was an indirect way to ask her out on a date. Surely enough, nothing happened, and I just brushed it off as her being busy or that she celebrated Cinco De Mayo instead. Note that her name asteroid is opposite Neptune.
July 14- Ascendant conjunct Neptune and natal descendant, opposite her name asteroid- I wrote a letter confessing my feelings, accompanied with a card where I asked her if she would be my valentine. In the letter, I gave her plenty of time to give me her answer, so when it didn't come right away I just thought she was taking her time and nothing more. Ah, Neptune...
July 16- Ascendant conjunct natal North Node- Me and my mom went to see the movie "Uncle Drew" at a movie theater a mile or two north of where we live, being basketball fans. I enjoyed the movie, but being in "crush" mode, I daydreamed about my crush being there with me instead of my mom the whole time! A very minor event, but nonetheless it happened.
July 22- Ascendant conjunct Eros, Venus conjunct natal ascendant- I was in the pool and I caught her walking by the pool next to her brother in law, where she smirked while nodding her head to him when I was having a "shy" moment. I am very intuitive and knew it was about me as my towel was in the exact same spot it was always at. I thought of this as "teasing" me, so I thought she was playing "hard to get". Ah, crushes...
Late July- Ascendant conjunct Chiron, Venus conjunct South Node- I was in the pool, and caught her, her son, niece, and nephew going to the pool on the other side of the building. Confused, I wrote another letter asking what was up, and asking if I unintentionally hurt her in any way. Two days later, her dad, brother in law, and the kids were in the pool with me and they were being friendly and even "put me on the spot" for liking her. Because of this day, I was basically convinced it was "hard to get". Two days later I thought I saw her going up the stairs, and when I looked to confirm, she was staring right at me. We stared for a few seconds until I had to help my mom find the house key as it was 9 PM. I was so convinced at this point.
August 20- Venus opposite Juno and Amor- I thought she moved out, and was devastated because I thought I scared her away. She came back a week later.
August 29- Ascendant conjunct Valentine and Uranus- She was walking with her son to the store and slowly walked down the stairs while staring at me. I was freaked out because she was that close and staring that way, like she was "checking me out"! I nodded and turned my head, because I was making a story book for her on her birthday, which was days away.
September 3- Ascendant conjunct 4th house cusp- I sent her the story book, another Red Robin gift card and another letter. The response was going to the other pool again, and I was hurt bad for the first time.
September 7- Ascendant opposite natal Pluto- I looked at her natal and discovered that her Chiron was on my ascendant, which is interpreted as someone you feel vulnerable around. I then wrote another letter offering to help her overcome her fear, if there was any.
September 12- Ascendant conjunct Jupiter- I was walking to the store and saw her with her son in front of the mechanical rides. She saw me and just walked away, while her son and nephew were overjoyed to see me, so I said "hi!" to them and went in the store.
It was at that time that I "got the message" and backed off, though it's been hard for me to go away completely because I got her son and nephew to really like me a lot! The Solar Return explains this perfectly:
In the Solar Return, her name asteroid is on the midheaven and conjunct my natal ascendant, meaning that she would basically be my WORLD this year... but, it is opposite Neptune! This basically says that this experience was MEANT to happen no matter what, and the Sun transited the midheaven around the time that I realized that I was living an illusion, while the ascendant was conjunct Neptune and the 4th house cusp! The Sun also transited Neptune recently, though this had nothing to do with that whatsoever, but rather me thinking I had breast cancer when in reality I was developing a mild case of the shingles! Another illusion... the same 12th house themes show up in the Solar Return, as the ascendant ruler Jupiter is in the 12th house, while in the Venus Return the ascendant ruler Saturn was in the 12th house conjunct natal Neptune! The 12th house and Neptune both rule escapism and alcohol. Also notable is that the Venus return ascendant is in the natal 5th house, which rules LOVE. The Solar Return is in Sagittarius in my natal 3rd house, which is very significant in that my crush was on an immigrant, and I made a conscious effort in order to learn more about Mexican culture and learn Spanish in order to communicate with her. I have also at the same time wrote a huge English-Spanish dictionary and made online quizzes and lists for her son, nephew, and niece. Sagittarian and Gemini themes played a huge part in the year... for events in the chart, the Sun was conjunct Venus and the ascendant was conjunct Saturn the day I sent the first gift card and invited her to watch DVDs and fireworks, the Sun was conjunct the Vertex while the ascendant was conjunct Pluto and the anti vertex when I confessed my feelings, and the Sun was conjunct the North Node while the ascendant was conjunct Mars when we stared for the first time. However, even though this experience was unrequited, next year's Solar Return is VERY interesting:
Notable aspects include descendant on natal Karma, Karma, anti vertex, and Neptune on my natal North Node in the natal 7th house, Valentine conjunct natal Venus and natal Valentine, meaning my Valentine return is happening at the same time, Moon is in natal 7th house, Venus in its own sign forming a grand trine with the Vertex and Saturn and conjunct natal Jupiter, Vertex, Cupido, and Eros stellium in the 7th house. Mars in 5th house, and Juno conjunct the North Node in the 5th house, as well as her last name asteroid, which is excluded for privacy reasons. Now the Venus Return:
At first glance, it doesn't look like much, but then you notice that Venus is the chart ruler. The Sun is conjunct Valentine on her Mars exact. The Moon is conjunct the North Node. Juno is conjunct her last name asteroid. The midheaven is in the natal 5th house instead of the ascendant. My natal Moon is on the Venus Return descendant. Uranus is on the ascendant, which points towards SOME type of change. Things that may be coincidental but also notable are that her birthday this year is on the same day as my Lunar Return, and my birthday next year is on the same day as her Lunar Return, and that my February 2020 Lunar Return is on Valentine's Day, with my Sun on the descendant EXACT. Speaking of Lunar Returns, a few in this period have been VERY interesting:
What's notable is that her Venus is on my Lunar Return descendant. The day I sent her the letter and she started acting weird, the descendant was conjunct Uranus and Valentine. On June 3, the ascendant was on the Moon. Also notable is when the ascendant was conjunct Jupiter, Psyche, and my name asteroid, I helped my other friend teach her 10 year old nephew how to swim.
Around the time when the descendant was transiting Venus was when I had my drinking episode. Moon was transiting the anti vertex the day I invited her to hang out, and transiting the descendant, North Node, and Venus when I confessed my feelings, which was also her Lunar Return. Venus was on the descendant this month, pointing towards a huge focus on relationships, though it was directly opposite Mars on the ascendant and not making many positive aspects. Also notable is that the ascendant is in my natal 5th house, the house of love. This was all meant to happen.
This was the Lunar Return period I worked on the storybook. Notice that Moon is the chart ruler and in the 5th house. The 5th house rules love and creativity, so once again, it was meant to happen.
This was the period when I finally broke out of the illusion. On the day I thought she moved, the ascendant was conjunct the Moon. It was conjunct Jupiter and Psyche the day she stared at me. The descendant was conjunct Juno and the Moon transited the Vertex on her birthday. Uranus was on the descendant, opposite Moon and squaring Mars, forming a "T square".
If you doubt Solar, Lunar, and Venus returns, DON'T. Events have occurred during every transit of the Sun, Moon, or Venus as well as the progressed ascendant to return planets and angles as well as natal planets and angles, and they describe what you'll be going through for that period very well.
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